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1: am i the only person who doesn't get the hate for wireless headphones? like i understand that it's sometimes annoying if you only have wired headphones and your phone has no headphone jack, that does infuriate me, but like... have you ever tried to do chores while listening to music or a podcast in the background? i am relatively blessed that my headphones offer both bluetooth and wired so that i can really easily use both but 9 times out of 10 i am using wireless so that i don't have to carry my device with me everywhere, and the 1 time out of 10 is because i'm too lazy to connect bluetooth / bluetooth is broken.
2: ok so soul and wicz are very obviously meant to be foils for one another. but what i see hidden within these messages is a certain... not only hatred, but disgust for wicz. what i kind of think right now is that soulbeat and wicz actually used to be... a lot closer than they are now. as soulbeat grew up it saw wicz kind of just... stagnate. never changing. wicz continued being the happy, perfect person they always were, and that made soulbeat mad. of course it did. how could somebody like wicz continue to be happy, while it was cursed to a life of being a mere substitute. and so, what soulbeat saw in common with wicz had to be purged. it slowly wrenched a divide between them... until soulbeat was "that boring guy who is always with me to make sure i don't die." and i think soulbeat also hated the fact that it had to see its sibling every day, that loud, energetic and wonderful sibling who got along with everybody. jealousy comes to mind here, why couldn't it have had the untouched, pristine and relaxing life that wicz has? why did zariku have to bring it in as a substitute? and so, as wicz self-aggrandizes, soulbeat loathes itself. as wicz shouts and runs and does as she pleases, soulbeat stays in its corner in #other and doesn't move an inch. as wicz typed with thought and character, soulbeat learned to type with efficiency. this is like purely conjecture but it's FUN conjecture damn it!
ok slight correction. i don't think soulbeat could ever bring itself to hate wicz. but it definitely hated what it saw in wicz; her personality and character
3:the jfa ost is so underrated like omg 2 people at the airport!!!! the credits theme!??!?!!! hotline of fate!!!!!! shelly dekiller!!!!!! investigation 2002 ~ core!!!!!!!!! literally akemi kimura is so talented (unfortunately i don't any music theory so all i can really do is kinda... point and scream OMG IT'S SO FUCKING GOOD)
4: damn chappel roan really is as good as people say she is. like i knew people liked her but i'm also like "hmmm well pop isn't really my thing and i feel like a lot of pop's lyrics feel kind of derivative tbh-" and then i listened to chappel roan. also that reasoning was fucking stupid because i loved yoasobi lmao. me omw to try to justify hating something for no reason in my head. YOU CAN KISS A HUNDRED BOYS IN BARS. SHOOT ANOTHER SHOT TRY TO STOP THE FEELING!!! ok sorry chappel roan has possessed my soul and spirit it is now time for me to pledge allegiance to her and become a part of the army </3 sorry guys i must leave forever (silly) ok so add-on (ad honorem reference?!??!!) but i really like the music video for good luck babe it's like a shitpost honestly and i appreciate the boldness. i think the reason why i didn't listen to chappel roan earlier is because i heard hot to go on the radio and tbh i thought it was kinda mid (and i still believe this) however good luck babe is literally peak; best song ever made.
5: tbh idk why i created this like my tumblr literally exists but ig i'm... stingier with my original posts there? no that's kinda stupid. i should really post a lot of these to tumblr these are like banger posts. yeah i should try to make more textposts on tumblr really. also addendum. do not want to talk about kin shit on my tumblr.
6: holy shit why am i literally sans from undertale. ok so something weird about me is that i don't really share that much in common with a lot of my kins. like... big man and me, we don't share much in common. i hate singing, i don't like most pop music, i could never be a celebrity... but i'm still him. every time i hear the words "big man," even if they have nothing to do with the character, i instantly think of myself. it is like calling me by my actual legal name, like it's like that meme with the neuron activation. it has gotten to the point where like i share so much in common with kris from deltarune. if i had to choose one character to explain my mental complexities, i would probably choose kris. but there is nothing special about them in my mind. when i see them i don't think "omg that's literally me," i think "oh wow, it's a character separate from me who happens to portray my mental complexities." and that is what is so weird about sans. i look at him and i cannot put into words how i feel. he is me, but on a different level than big man.
after thinking for a while, i actually think something that is consistent between all my kins is the feeling of being trapped in something inescapable (including a lot of the characters i'm kinsidering rn). sans is trapped with the knowledge that at any point, his knowledge of events could simply be reset without anybody, even him realizing. big man is trapped by virtue of being a pop idol and is forced to bear responsibilities; responsibilities that i loved, by the way (as i was writing this my brain immediately dumped memories of me posing for reporters lol). i loved posing for the camera and smiling for the interviewers. but if i ever decided i didn't want to do that... well i guess shit sucks for me! space is limited by the laws of physics: a cage that locks what i can and can't do. the knight in hollow knight was quite literally locked in the abyss for a while. it also almost gets trapped into a dream by the dreamers, and it is basically stuck in a metaphorical trap by the game, where no matter what ending you get, you're either trapped forever or dead. this... motif of being trapped fits me quite well right now for reasons i'd rather not get into, but for a tame example of this in my life: i have always felt trapped by school. i was always "the gifted kid" and could get a's without studying... but i was very dissatisfied. now something about me that might not be very apparent is that i LIVE for just barely surmountable challenge. i get highs from realizing that i have mastered something that i could likely never have done a month or two ago. for the most part, i had used geometry dash a vehicle for surmountable challenge, and it is an extremely good method to do so, however i was abroad and i had no access to gd (geometry dash), so instead i decided to teach myself calculus. uh yeah and that's the story of how i learnt calculus when i was 14 lol. i got so good and invested into maths that quickly it was less about the challenge and more about the beauty (main reasons i delved so deeply into geometric algebra, number theory and group theory)
BUT BACK TO THE POINT. sans resonates with me the most in this theme of being trapped honestly. i think... okay at this point i genuinely cannot put into words what i feel about him. undertale was such a pivotal game for me growing up because it was the first game i played that had a story that impacted me. i first played it because of the combat, and i still adore the combat, but the reason i come back is for the story. it marked a shift in my perspective from "video games should play well" to "video games are an art form that can be analyzed." and i think the sans bossfight in genocide was the first time i realized "oh shit. this game's story has themes and a cohesive narrative." (keep in mind i was... a lot younger and skipping through a lot of the dialogue) when sans attacked i genuinely felt like he was trying to say something to me through the screen... and like obviously i don't need to talk about the themes of the genocide route and stuff because... those have been talked about to death. a couple years later when i rediscovered undertale (as well as deltarune :3) i realized... holy shit this game is the best game ever. like genuinely.
anyways another topic about kins that is kind of weird for me is that i don't get a lot of memories. that isn't to say i get absolutely zero, far from it. but my memories are quite limited, to the point where the only kin that i know is in a non-canon state is sans. as sans i lived in a post-true pacifist world where i was on the surface. and this is where most of my memories reside (easiest to trigger ig. a lot of them involve just existing in nature and being able to see the sky). however weirdly enough... it feels like some things are just missing? like papyrus is nowhere to be seen, which is really fucking weird. and i only have 1 memory of the underground: trying to create a physical model for magic without looking at any outside sources (this is also how i know i'm not from deltarune. unless there's some sort of surprise plot twist that deltarune is a sequel which... doesn't make sense since rudy is alive but that's besides the point)